Monday 14 October 2024

My thoughts on the International Symbol of Access

My biggest thought and problem I have with the International Symbol of Access (ISA) is that it doesn’t represent all disabilities, I feel that on the surface it just represents wheelchair users when in fact 93% of people with a disability don’t use a wheelchair yet the symbol we use to represent disability is of a wheelchair user. 

As a wheelchair user myself when I’m out and about it does represent me as a wheelchair user, such as where to go and park my chair in the wheelchair space on a train or bus or to park in a accessible parking bay or use an accessible bathroom or Changing Places (the symbol on that has a wheelchair user on it). However it doesn’t represent my other disabilities and as a symbol of access it represents me there in my wheelchair and my needs relating to that, but what about my other hidden needs? They’re not represented within this symbol. How can we have, if at all possible an International Symbol that represents disability as a whole?

Two images top and bottom. The top image has a pale turquoise background with a white stick figure in a wheelchair the bottom image has a pink background with a figure of a person pushing themselves in a wheelchair.
The original symbol was first created in 1968 to identify accessible facilities and features such as parking spaces, accessible toilets and spaces on buses and trains. I personally prefer the new symbol that was redesigned in 2010 as it shows an active wheelchair user rather than the static person in a wheelchair in the original symbol. It’s hard to explain but in the original symbol the figure is just sat there not doing anything, but it the new symbol have an active figure seems to symbolise that wheelchair users are active, like were active members of society rather than passive static members of society. I just feel that the new symbol needs to catch on and be used more and be replaced over the original symbol and for the new symbol to be more widely know and recognised as the ISA.

There are many other accessibility symbols out there however these symbols are very niche to their purpose and I feel that they may also not be widely recognised and understood past the need of the user for that symbol or especially by those who don’t have any form of disability or chronic illness. What is good is that these symbols are used universally so are used and recognised around the world.

A dark wood door with a disability symbol below is another sign that has a make and female symbol and a wheelchair and text reading accessible toilet not every disability is visible People and companies are always trying to come up with ways to symbolise disability and chronic illness more universally. For example the Hidden Disabilities Sunflower Lanyard. Wearing a Sunflower Lanyard will symbolise to others that you have some form of hidden disability; you can also buy cards to attach to your lanyard that names your hidden disability for additional visibility and you can also outline what your access requirements are on your card too to make gaining accessibility and visibility of your hidden disability easier. The Sunflower Lanyard scheme is gaining wider popularity and recognition and stores and other venues like airports, train stations, shops and concert venues are trained to recognise the Sunflower Lanyard and how best to meet the needs of those with hidden disabilities. Companies are also adding signs to their accessible toilets to say that not every disability is visible in recognition that accessible toilets are used by a wide variety of people with a wide variety of health conditions; not just wheelchair user (as is often the assumption as to who uses them).

One of the big problems many non wheelchair users find with the ISA is facing attitudes of ableism and discrimination. Because the symbol is of a wheelchair user some non-disabled people hold the belief that the facility or access feature is for wheelchair users only, for example accessible toilets (hence the move to put up alternative signage on accessible toilets) and also accessible parking. So often I hear of non wheelchair users facing scrutiny and hurtful comments for parking in accessible parking bays because they’re not in a wheelchair, or even because they’re an ambulatory wheelchair user an so can get out of their wheelchair even though all of these individuals are using a valid disabled parking badge which they’ve been awarded. This may be because they can’t walk far and so use one of a variety of mobility aids (which  may differ from day to day for some people), those who a blind or visually impaired, individuals who lack a sense of danger, or even those who have severe anxiety can make a person eligible for a disabled parking badge. All these examples are wide ranging yet the only symbol you see around the parking bays are of a wheelchair user. How could we represent the wide range of need for these parking bays, or on the flip side do we need to educate the public so they don’t scrutinise someone with a disability or chronic illness who isn’t in a wheelchair for parking [with their blue disabled parking badge] who isn’t in a wheelchair?

One store in the UK did try to change this to make their accessible parking spaces more inclusive, however I feel it was done very poorly. By calling their parking bays ‘Less Abled Parking’ yes it did include those that were less able encompassing more people than just wheelchair users to be able to park there that were less able to walk far. However by calling is ‘Less Abled Parking’ it almost feels like disabled and chronically ill people are being called ‘less than’ or ‘less able’, yes individuals might be less able to walk far, but they are not less able in general. It’s almost demoralising using the term ‘Less Abled Parking’ in my opinion.

I think with accessible parking companies need to use signage that represents different disabilities like what has been done to accessible toilets to make the public aware that accessible parking is for more than just wheelchair users. I think this would help with education and reduce discrimination.

A row of empty parking bays on the ground of each bay in each one is a different symbol representing a different type of disability or illness The Visibility93 project set out to redesigned what they saw as the outdated and poorly representative symbol for disability. With there being fewer disabled people in wheelchairs than the rest of the population they set out to create symbols to represent different disabilities and chronic illnesses and came up with an alphabet of 27 symbols each representing conditions from Crohn’s and Colitis, epilepsy, diabetes to depression and more. I think this is a new and creative way to represent different disabilities and chronic illnesses.

I think in conclusion finding a universal symbol to represent disability would be difficult because there are so many diverse disabilities and chronic illnesses out there. Despite wheelchair users being in the minority it is often the most visual thing that comes to a person’s mind when they think of disability. So often in television when a character or background character is used who has a disability the go-to is someone in a wheelchair, the same goes for advertising because it’s the most obvious this for a non-disabled person to understand when it comes to the complexities of disability. I think if you asked most people what they think of when you ask them to think about a disability they’ll picture a person in a wheelchair.

As a society we are also so used to the current ISA to represent disability if it were to change to reflect disability more fairly i.e. hidden disabilities it would only be confusing for non-disabled people to understand what it represents in relation to disability.


Sunday 6 October 2024

A day in my life

Waking up 

9am: This is when my alarm goes off to wake me up, I find it helpful to keep to a routine and wake up the same time each morning. Sometimes I’m awake before 9am, usually because I’m in pain; if I do wake early I just take some pain relief if needed and lay in bed and listen to a podcast or audiobook until its time to start my morning routine. I have an Apple Watch and I monitor my sleep on the Apple Health app, my aim is to get 10 hours of sleep. If I sleep well it helps me to function a bit better during the day; if I don’t sleep well then it makes it harder to function and it has a negative impact on my symptoms.

Recently I’ve been waking up with a lot of neuropathic (nerve) pain in my left hand affecting its function too. I can also wake up with subluxed or dislocated joints as a result of my Ehlers-Danlos (EDS).

A white round pill dispenser with a open segment at the bottom for medication and above is written AM
9.15am: This is when I take my morning medication. I use a Pivotell® medication carousel that sets off an alarm to help me to remember to take my medication; I also take my pink inhaler which has a lovely floral case from Inhaler Tailor - I like to accessorise medical devices as much as possible to make them look less clinical. I also find it easier to use a spacer with my inhaler. - I log all the medication I take, both regular and PRN (as and when needed) plus every time I use my inhaler on the Apple Health app to help me monitor and keep track of things especially as I get so forgetful, it also serves a great help for things such as medical appointments such as my asthma reviews or when I’m asked what medication I take.

I allow my meds to kick in and then I start to slowly sit myself up. I have to do this because of the problems I have with dysautonomia and orthostatic intolerance, basically if I sit up too quickly my blood pressure drops and my heart rate goes up and I get really dizzy and I’m at risk of passing out. I also have to spend a lot of my time laid or reclined during the day as my body can’t tolerate being upright for too long. This is one of the many reasons why having my profiling bed is so helpful as I can sit myself up in little increments or recline if it gets too much until I’m fully sat up and ready to get out of bed; I can also tilt my bed to raise my legs higher up which helps if my dysautonomia symptoms are playing up. Dealing with a dysfunctional autonomic nervous system (dysautonomia) can be really difficult as there are a multitude of symptoms and things that can go wrong in the body all of which are very unpredictable.

An iPad with a partly completed jigsaw puzzle on the screen the iPad is mounted on a grab rail of the bed the clamp is black and the arms of the iPad mount are pink

9.30am: Once I’m sat up I put on my CareLink around my wrist, I can press it if I need assistance in emergencies and someone will come through on the intercom box, it also detects falls so should I fall it immediately alerts CareLink. I allowed my body to adjust and I’m able to safely get out of bed - so if I get out of bed before my body is ready and I pass out my CareLink falls detector will be alerted. I then disconnect from my night bag. Next I’ll make myself a coffee and the return to rest in bed. I’ll usually listen to something on my iPad like my audiobook or a podcast and I’ll play a game like The Sims or do a jigsaw puzzle, some mornings if I’m not feeling great I prefer to just lay and listen. - I find my MERU Flexzi iPad stand really helpful, it’s attached to the bar on my bed and allows me to use my iPad more easily especially when I’m reclined or laid down in bed. 

If I can tolerate it I’ll open one of my blinds a bit to allow me to start adjusting to the light, later, once I’m dressed I’ll open the other blind a bit if it’s a day where I can tolerate a bit more light. On my bad days with M.E. or my migraines my hypersensitivity to light is worse and so I find the light painful so I’ll keep my blinds closed.

If it’s a day where I’ve got agency care I’ll get my breakfast around 10am which I usually make the night before to make it easier on my morning routine as all I have to do is simply get my breakfast out the fridge.

I’m not completely my best in the mornings; I usually wake up more tired than when I went to bed which is a feeling often felt by people with M.E., I’m also just generally not a morning person either.


When my PA arrives

I have a PA to support me in the day but once a fortnight I have three mornings when I have an agency carer instead as I’m struggling to recruit PAs. My PAs work for either 2½ or 4½ hours depending on what day it is, agency carers are here for 1½ hours. - I’ll write this as though it’s one of my PA’s shorter days to work so you can get an idea of what I enjoy doing in my free time and also what my symptoms are like during the rest of the day.

10am is the time my PAs Diane or Jo start. (My agency carer usually arrives around 11/11.30am)

My PA will make my breakfast for me, usually porridge along with a drink and we’ll have a chat. Sometimes at this point I’m still not feeling fully awake. After breakfast and chatting for a bit we’ll put the bath on to run (my bath is the slowest filling bath in the world!)

White tiles and a diagonal grab rail on the tiles above the bath in the bath is a bath lift which looks like a chair and it is white with turquoise padded cushions on the seat and back rest
My bath lift
Whilst the bath is running we get my clothes out for the day along with my creams. I have a few creams that I apply which are different barrier creams to prevent me from developing pressure sores. Alongside my creams I also have a hybrid airflow mattress which one of my nurses provided me with and this also helps alleviate my risk of developing pressure sores. - I’m assessed as being a higher risk for pressure sores as my skin is more fragile and I have poor healing because of my EDS as well as this even though I’m not bed bound I still have to spend the majority of my day in bed so the creams and mattress help as a preventative and so far they’ve done their job.

With the support and enablement from PAs/carers I have a bath. I try to remain as independent as I can by doing as much as I can without exhausting myself out with Post Exertion Malaise (PEM) either now or later in the day. I usually what I can manage to do is wash my face and brush my teeth and I help to dry myself too. I can’t tolerate showers as with my hypersensitivity showers to me feel like a powerful painful jet wash. To get in an out of the bath I use a bath lift which is a seat that lowers and then reclines me into the bath and then it will do the reverse to get me out. I’ll get dressed on my bed, to protect my PA/carer or if I have a nurse visiting me I’ll raise up the height of my bed to protect their back so my profiling bed not only benefits me it also benefits those caring for me.

12pm: I’m usually dressed by this time. It’s important to pace everything I do to lessen my PEM, pain, fatigue and other symptoms. My PA will make my lunch along with another drink and they’ll also wash some pots and maybe do some other jobs like load the washing machine, make a hot water bottle, and put a drink in a thermal tumbler for me to drink later.

Afternoon

12.30pm: Is when my PA finishes work. After they leave I’m usually feeling exhausted so I take my hot drink and hot water bottle to bed and I put on a podcast or audiobook. Usually I’ll just lay and listen sometimes on my good days I’ll also do something like a jigsaw puzzle on my iPad or some other low-level activity.

1.30-2.30pm: Later I might have some energy for day’s main activity. Depending on what kind of a day I’m having will decide what activity I do, from a lower-energy activity to an activity that will require more energy for me that day, or spoons if you want to use Spoon Theory. Also depending on how much energy or spoons I have and the activity I can usually do an activity for about 20-60 minutes. I have to keep a check on how I’m feeling to ensure I’m not going to overdo it and bring on PEM which is very easy to do.

PEM can be very unpredictable and you never know how bad it will be or how long it will last for. PEM is one of the main symptoms of M.E.

Some of the activities I enjoy doing in an afternoon might include:

  • Writing to a pen pal
  • Crafting e.g. kits, card making, iris folding, diamond painting, crochet
  • Assembling die cut sets onto cards (a nice low-level activity)
  • Colouring
  • Activity books like sticker-by-numbers 
  • Blogging 
  • Doing my nails
  • Going out for a ride with my Batec on my wheelchair (if it’s a longer day I have with my PA or my Dad is visiting me)
  • Put some makeup on
On a really really good day I’ll also do some of my to-do list such as medical admin and other admin tasks such as emails, telephone calls and form filling, I might also do some very basic jobs around my home that are doable for me and leave the more energy zapping or difficult jobs for my PAs or carers, just things like tidying my craft table or over bed table and cleaning it with and antibac wipe. It’s nice on my really really good days to feel like a home owner by doing simple house jobs it also makes me feel more productive and independent too.

If I do an activity I’m usually pretty exhausted with PEM especially if I’ve over done it and often my pain levels flare up too. I also especially get a lot of pain in my legs with my M.E. alongside hip pain due to my EDS. I also often experience headaches and migraines. When I get really exhausted my immune system can flare up too and I can experience flu-like symptoms as well - this is the Malaise which means generally feeling unwell and feeling in discomfort. All these symptoms often require additional pain relief and other medications to help relieve the symptoms as well as the use of other pain and symptom management techniques.

A bed with the head of the bed raised up there is a grey body pillow on the bed as well as a pillow with a multicoloured pillowcase on there is also a hot water bottle with a blue a white striped cover an iPad is mounted to on of the rails on the bed and there is a water bottle on the bedside drawers next to the bed behind the bed are sun catcher rainbows shining on the wall
3pm: by about this point (sometimes it’s earlier) I’m in desperate need to just simply rest. I’ll usually close my blinds as the dimmed room helps as the light only adds to my pain. I put in my noise cancelling AirPods to block out background noise as this can exacerbate my symptoms. My profiling bed helps me get as comfortable as possible. I use the app Calm and I put on a soundscape and I just lay in bed and listen to this to rest. 

On my worst days I’m unable to tolerate any noise so I just put in my noise cancelling earbuds and lay in bed to rest. This can be difficult emotionally as I have no distraction from my symptoms and I just have to simply lay in bed. 

I’ve developed a good setup around my bed to have everything I need to hand for occasions when I’m unable to get out of bed.

Depending upon how I’m feeling and if I’m having a good or bad afternoon will determine how long I need to rest for. On a good day I’ll rest for 30-60 minutes on a bad afternoon I’ll rest until my evening carer arrives around 4-5pm

4pm: On a good afternoon afternoon after I’ve rested I’ll listen to something, a book or some podcast episodes and do a low-level activity, or I’ll watch something on my iPad so it’s still restful-ish until my evening PA/carer arrives. 


Evening care

My carers/PAs get to me around 4-5pm(ish)

On a really good day if I haven’t been out earlier I might go out for a ride with my PA on my Batec for about 20 minutes usually around the area where I live.

Once I’m back from my Batec ride or if I haven’t been out I’ll begin my evening care with getting a wash. Sometimes I’ll have a wash at the sink, on not-so-good days I just use Fresh Wipes to wash or Nilaqua waterless foam cleaner. On a bad day and I’m not up for a wash at all I’ll just get into my pjs. In an evening we reapply my barrier creams again. I like to wash as it helps with my sleep time routine; also washing is important when you have barrier creams on your skin as a build up of cream can cause the skin to break down so it’s very important to keep it washed off before reapplying it.

Afterwards my PA/carer will make my tea for me. On my good days I’ll join in and help where I can like if passing things out the fridge and freezer and deciding my portions. My PAs/carers will do other things for me like washing the pots, drying and putting them away, cleaning the kitchen space, preparing my night time and morning drinks, making me a hot water bottle, setting up my night bag, emptying the bins and recycling box, folding laundry or anything else that I need help with.

A water bottle attached to the headboard of a bed and a long straw is going from the water bottle and is clipped to a pink gingham pillowcase and the end of the straw rests on the middle of the pillow the head of the bed is slightly raised
On my really bad days my carers will let themselves in as I’m unable to get out of bed. If I’m experiencing a crash (when my M.E. symptoms are worse) my carers will ensure they talk quietly and keep conversations to a minimum. They’ll also be careful not to bang my bed or make sudden noises and to be gentle when helping me into my pyjamas. They’ll keep the door shut and keep the noise down in the front room when preparing my tea and doing other jobs. Additional things they do is ensure my pain is managed and give me pain relief if I haven’t been able to take it myself. They’ll also ensure my Hydrant bottle is refilled for me - this is a litre water bottle with a long straw that clips to my pillow, it means I can sip on water and stay hydrated hands free when lifting a water bottle would be a challenge.

5pm: this is when I take my evening medication.


Evening and bedtime routine 

5-6pm(ish): is when my PA/carer leaves depending on when they arrive. I’m usually pretty exhausted afterwards and ready to settle down.

After they leave if I’m feeling up to it (on a good day) I’ll update my bullet journal for the day. Then I’ll brush my teeth. I keep water wipes and travel face products next to my bed so I usually do my evening skincare routine in bed.

On bad days when I can’t get out of bed or I’m already in bed I’ll just be resting washing or listening to something on my iPad. In terms of my personal care I’ll just skip brushing my teeth as much as I dislike it and I’ll also miss out my evening skincare routine too as I just don’t have the energy as I have to prioritise where the last of my my energy goes.

An iPad screen with a paused television program on the screen the iPad is tilted there is a ruffed blanket on the bed and at the foot of the bed is an over bed table
7pm: I’ll get into bed if I’m not already there. Depending on how I’m feeling I’ll maybe watch some easy watching TV show of for a short while. If not I might listen to a book or podcast I might do a jigsaw puzzle on my iPad at the same time or I might just lay and listen if I’m too tired. My symptoms usually gets worse the later it gets in the day.

8.10pm: is when I take my bedtime medication 

8.10pm-10.30pm(ish): I used to always go to bed at 9pm whether I was tired or not but a few months ago I did a sleep session for people with chronic pain and since then I’ve learnt to go to bed when I’m tired so when I go to sleep varies. Sometimes I’m nodding off at 7pm so I’ll go to bed as soon as I’ve taken my bedtime medication other times it’ll be later.

What I find hard to understand is despite really struggling during the day with chronic fatigue is at night I can sometimes struggle with insomnia. My way of trying to understand my sleeplessness is because my body doesn’t have the energy to sleep. I can also struggle to sleep sometimes due to high levels of pain.

9pm: I try to avoid screens before I sleep so I’ll lay and listen to my audiobook or a podcast. Sometimes I read a book but there are times like at the moment where I lose the cognitive function to do things like read a book, but I hope to get back reading soon.

I find it really helpful to have smart lighting so I can adjust to brightness of my lights with my voice or on my phone/iPad I can also turn plug sockets on and off too; I can also have settings such as ‘evening’ or if I say ‘good night’ to my HomePod all the lights and plug sockets turn off around my home - this makes it easier for me and my carers too. 

I sleep with a body pillow around me, it’s nice and comfortable but it also supports my joints as when you sleeps your muscles relax and that’s when my joints can sublux or even dislocate in my sleep.

I aim to get 10 hours of sleep at night and then when I wake I’ll repeat all of this the next day!